It's 2AM, Day 2, and i have not stopped thinking about you in the past 48 hours. 12 more days until the 2 weeks are up. I curse myself for being overconfident and thinking you would break and message me!

I put up an exterior of cockiness to the world because i don't want to expose my vulnerability. Honestly, I think my vulnerability scares me!

I have fought for SO long that this hard exterior comes as second nature. But when I'm with you, I feel like I can embrace myself for everything I am. You give me a way to bring my weaknesses and strengths in sync.

I know our start was under unconventional circumstances, but it is this unconventionality that makes our relationship unique. You make me want to be good. You make me desire the things I had lost hope on. You make me want to fight for what's right and what I think is right for us. There's nothing more I want than to spend a lifetime in your arms. You ground me. You make me see a perspective of life I never saw before. You make me COMPLETE!

Give me the chance to complete you. Give me the chance to make you feel like the only one that matters. When I'm away from you, ALL i can think of is running back to you! Give me the chance to shower you with ALL this love that I have pent up inside me!

Walk with me and be my crutch and allow me to carry you through the tough times and see you through the ups & downs of life.

Pain of separation has now become my friend. It hurts SO much but reminds me that I'm alive and that I FEEL! It's a constant reminder of not being invincible! I have to find a way to embrace this...become one with it. I have to be able to turn this pain into something tangible. A two week fast from you is worse than ANY fasting that I've had to do during ramadan! Why do I miss you so much? Why does every minute of my waking moment continuously have an imprint of you? Why is it that everywhere I look, My eyes look for you?

I have questioned: Why you? The answer is always one: SOULMATE

Your concerns are founded. You bring up 2 valid points. Trust and family. Both equally important. Understand that our relationship is different from anything that either of us has had in the past. TRUST is the foundation for ANY relationship. I know we started with a base of deception. I deceived you and my past. But my past was different and you are different. You are my beginning...what i was in my past has now been replaced with what you have made me today

The fact that i don't have any desire to seek out anyone else; the fact that you intrigue me even after knowing you for this long is confirmation enough for me that i will never stray from you. I left behind a life of 12 years in a heartbeat to be with you. This wasn't because of infatuation or lust. This was due to the connection that we found: Mind, Body & Soul!

The base of any relationship starts with the creation of a foundation. We started building our foundation with love but we need to integrate trust and finish it off with compassion and understanding. Compassion and Understanding for our differences and similarities that make us 2 different people but one soul.

It's funny but it seems that neither of us get mad, stressed or anxious at the same time! When one of does, the other is always there to calm us down! We think alike. We react to things very similarly. We can look into each others eyes and immediately know what the other one is thinking!!!!

Sometimes I think this is ALL a dream. Do I pinch myself and see if I wake up? How is it possible that we found each other. People search a lifetime for what we found! I replay the past 9 months over and over. Every moment is clear and vivid. Like I'm watching a live video! Every step, it seems exudes an essence of divine intervention. How we met, how we connected, how we almost separated...and how everything keeps falling into place!

More than seeing you I miss your voice! I miss you making the remarks you make, the expressions you say. You voice has SUCH a soothing effect on me. No matter how stressful the situation, the moment you say that everything will be ok, I believe it! When you tell me things, i LOVE the way your whole face expresses its emotions. My eyes crave to see you, my ears long to hear the twinkle of your laughter.......